Wednesday, December 15, 2010

Running is my therapy.

I have no idea where this post is going, so, I apologize in advance. I'm just really frustrated. There are things going on in my family that are way beyond my control, and really there is nothing I can even do about it. In spite of any good intentions I may have of fixing anything, I know that any actions I take could seriously blow up in my face. So, it basically leaves me with my hands tied. I'm the type of person who has a "fix-it" mentality. When a conflict arises, I want to resolve it and move on appropriately. However, with this particular conflict, I can't do a darn thing because, as I just mentioned, it will blow up in my face, no matter how sincere my intentions are.

After learning some news this morning, it appeared very convenient that I was heading to the gym for a run this morning. I needed an outlet for the emotions and frustrations I was feeling at the time. I made it to the gym and was able to crank out 5 miles at an average 8:57 pace. I've found that I tend to get better paces when I'm venting my frustrations through running. Does running make my feelings over a particular situation go away? Heck no. I really wish it did though. It doesn't make the feelings go away, but it does calm that desire to throw something through the wall. Because of my "fix-it" mentality, when my hands are tied with a particular situation, it often makes me envision myself throwing something through the wall. And I really want to throw something through the wall. So, instead of exerting that energy by throwing something, I exert it by running. Running is how I'm able to release that anger and bitterness without harming anything (like said wall).

I've been working hard at trying to run or go to a spinning class most days of the week. I really think its partly due to all of the emotions I've been carrying over the last couple months related to everything going on. Running is my physical outlet for all the negative emotions I carry.

So, I want to know... how does running help you, besides the obvious physical benefits? How does it help you cope with life?

Also... several weeks ago, I had mentioned something that was potentially happening that would create a HUGE life change. Well, that potential change will not be taking place. Its disappointing and relieving all at once. It would have been an awesome opportunity, but on the other hand, its relieving to know we won't be going anywhere super-duper far away for awhile (although I DO still want to go somewhere semi-far from here).

Aaaaaaand... some of you are probably wondering where Ann is. She'll be back!! I'll let her divulge what she wants to divulge. But she will be back soon. :) I love you, sis!!

Friday, December 10, 2010

Fitness Friday?

Sure! Its Friday, and I ran this morning. So, we'll definitely file today under Fitness Friday! Its been rather crazy around here lately. Lots of things that always come up that I want to write about, but never get around to actually doing it. Just too much stuff going on. But, I won't bore you with all those details.

The Babe got his first ear infection this week. That has totally sucked... more so for him than me, I'm sure. He woke up around 11pm about 3 nights ago and screamed & cried unconsolably all night long. It was terribly rough, especially since we could not figure out what was wrong with him. No fever, not tugging on ears, not coughing... All he had was a runny nose, and he had had that for a few days by this point. So, what now? Well, thank GOD the Hubs had some paid time off (classified as "unforseen time"), so he stayed up with the Babe most of the night so I could make it to work the next day. He took him into the doctor and turned out he had a raging ear infection. The kid never once touched his ear all night long. Luckily, we got him on the appropriate meds, and he's been doing much better since then, although not taking more than a few ounces at a time from the bottle.

Other than that, I've been trying to run, but haven't been able to. This week has been so screwy that I haven't gotten in as many workouts as I'd like. BUT, I still made it in. I was able to do an hour on the 'mill yesterday, and did 4.5 miles this morning, in spite of the longer drive due to crappy roads from the snow we got last night. So, all in all, I'd call this week 'satisfactory'. I got some work in, although not quite as much as I'd like (only because its the holiday season).

I've decided that I'll be cutting myself a little bit of slack, diet-wise for this month. I want to enjoy the goodies that come in multitudes this time of year without feeling guilty. And so, I've decided that I'd much rather workout more so that I can enjoy those goodies, as opposed to avoiding the goodies. Hopefully I'll break even this month.

Have a wonderful weekend, All!!

Thursday, December 2, 2010

Three Things Thursday... IT'S THURSDAY!

All day yesterday, I walked around thinking it was Thursday... Or, forgetting that it was only Wednesday. So, now that Thursday is actually here today, well, I'm here. Its not Friday yet, but I'm slowly but surely plugging along. Oh, and I'm having fun with colors and such today.

1. I got in 83 miles during the month of November in a total time of 13 hrs and 22 min. That averages to a pace of 9:38 min/mile. That's pretty cool for me, considering I was running 12-13 minute miles back in the spring. I also got in a total of 27 workouts, between running, spinning, yoga, etc. Yay for not gaining holiday weight!

2. Tomorrow night is the Christmas Party for Hub's work. Should be fun, although it will be a challenge getting out of work at 5pm, get home, changed and dolled up, and to the party by 6:30, when it starts, all the way on the North side of Indy (we live on the farrrrr West side - about 45 min west of Indy). So, naturally, we'll be late.

3. I think we're getting our Christmas tree this weekend! I'm pretty excited about that... I love the Christmas season, and especially more so this year since its the Babe's first Christmas! I want so badly to just spoil him with gifts, but the Hubs is being more realistic and not wanting to buy as much, since, according to him, "he'd be happy with a box for Christmas".

Happy Thursday all! Its short and sweet, but to the point. Have a great day!

Wednesday, December 1, 2010

Proof that I don't function without a workout... And apparently, I'm a runner.

So, yesterday. It was baaad. My alarm went off at 4:30am and it was 50 degrees outside. A little windy, but 50 degrees. I.SHOULD.HAVE.RUN. But did I? That's a BIG, FAT Negative. I slept instead. I knew getting a workout in in the evening after work would be a challenge, due to the Hubs going to the gym right after work and me needing to pick up the Babe from daycare and feeding him. I knew that if I was going to get a workout in, I wouldn't make it to the gym until 6:30 at best, and probably would not make it home until 8:00. At best. This is normally the time when the Babe is either cranky or we're giving him his bath, so this meant that I would get to spend virtually no time with him in the evening, which I hate. I couldn't run outside, as the temp through the day had gone from 50+ degrees down to the lower 30's with a wicked wind chill in the lower 20's/upper teens. No thanks.

Me being the logical person that I am, I justified my lack of workout, knowing that I had worked out the past 12 consecutive days. I was due for a rest day, in all honesty. Well, something happened (did PMS hit a few days after the fact?) and my eating habits did not stay up to par for a non-workout day. They went right down the crapper. I busted out the bag of Boy Scouts popcorn (triple chocolate something-or-other...), and instead of stopping at just a few bites, I said "screw it" and ate way more than I should have. So, instead of trying to be extra good with my calories since I wasn't running, I was extra bad. And I was extra cranky last night too. The Hubs kept asking what was wrong, and I honestly couldn't tell him. I just felt cranky for no real reason... other than the fact that I didn't get my workout in.

I've read blogs from others who always say that they're better parents when they run. I've never really known how much truth there was to that statement, as I had never really experienced that mood shift that would come from not working out. But yesterday, I did. I am a better wife and a better mother when I get my workout in. That sacrifice of that last hour of sleep is well worth the mood I'm in for the rest of the day when I get up and workout. So, this morning, I was up at 4:30am on the dot. Except, instead of brave the 18 degree wind chill and the snow that was coming down this morning, I headed into the gym for a good run. It felt good. Really good. I even kept a good pace for myself. I managed to knock out 4.5 miles in just over 41 minutes! Pretty quick for me. I'm planning on going back to the gym for a few more miles today after work, since the Hubs is picking up the Babe from daycare.

On a separate, but related note... apparently I'm a runner. For as long as I can remember, I've walked on my toes. Well, not on my toes, but my heels don't hit the ground for very long. You all probably know what I'm talking about. I've always kind of felt self-conscious about it, ever since people started pointing it out to me. Well, today, I came across a patient who asked if I was a runner. Um, yes, why? He said I walked on my toes, and that was indicative of a runner, due to the strong calves. Let me say this: I have no idea how much truth there is to that statement. BUT, it made me feel a little better about my 'toe-walking', so to speak. For once, it was pointed out to me in such a way that didn't make me feel like it was a bad or weird thing. So, whether or not there's truth in that statement, I'll take it.

Happy Wednesday!